I had to take a break and walk around a bit today to figure out how to write about this latest tragedy. I am sure everyone has heard or read about the murders committed by George Sodini at the Pennsylvania fitness club earlier this week.
When I saw the news footage on it I took it for another Man vs. Ex showdown then I read the news articles today.
This is simply horrific.
If I were to make this man out to be the victim I would be no better than the anti-male biased feminist that have created the breeding ground for men pushed to the edge that we find ourselves in today. At least no better than them in that I would be presenting the criminal solely as a victim to rationalize his actions. I will not do that.
In reading the parts of Mr. Sodini's blog that have been published (the site has been taken down) I see a man who has suffered from being marginalized, walked over, pushed aside and under rated for years. I have seen many of his postings mirrored on other sites this Summer.
Dec. 29, 2008: "Just got back from tanning, been doing this for a while. No gym today, my elbow is sore again. I actually look good. I dress good, am clean-shaven, bathe, touch of cologne - yet 30 million women rejected me - over an 18 or 25-year period. That is how I see it. ... A man needs a woman for confidence. ... This type of life I see is a closed world with me specifically and totally excluded."
Life is just playing games. ... Every evening I am alone, and then go to bed alone."
May 18, 2009: "I actually had a date today. It was with a woman I met on the bus in March. We got together at Two PPG Place for lunch. The last date for me was May 1, 2008. Women just don't like me. There are 30 million desirable women in the US (my estimate) and I cannot find one
May 29, 2009: "Another lonely Friday night, I'm done. This is too much."
How many times have I seen men write about how women ignore them, or how they have not had a relationship, sometimes they say they have never had a relationship.
This man had a good job with a law firm as an IT person, was in good shape it looks like. Yet as so many men experience these days he was just too boring or too ordinary or dare I say it perhaps too Beta to compete in today's world.
As the media turn this man into the monster he certainly turned into I hope each of us will ask ourselves why so many men in the course of this one Summer have turned to violence and finally suicide as a way to express their emotions.
I can think of six murder/suicides this Summer alone just off the top of my head. All of them multiple murders all of them ending with the man shooting himself. All of them directed at a woman or women.
I am sure the feminist will use these cases to cry out for more special protection, more money, more privilege, more reason to ban guns.
All will ignore the fact that each of these men killed themselves, only a man at the very end of his rope with no other way to express himself over come with feelings of uselessness and marginalization with no way out that he can see will turn his own weapon on himself.
I wish these men, all of them, from the jilted husband in Washington, the down on his luck man from South Carolina, the prominent professor from Georgia, the Santa suite guy from California, and now this guy and the others I don't remember had come to sites such as this one or others. They could have seen they are not alone. If I could have helped them or stopped them I would have.... Any of us would have.
I pray that enough people will begin asking themselves what drives these men to these terrible actions. I hope enough will see that these men cannot be written off as loons in the same mold as serial killers or axe murders.
These men stood at a crossroads that many of us on these blog sites have stood on as well. I wish they had chosen the fork we have all taken and tried to make some changes without falling to violence.